Let me be emo nemo.

Caution: I can tell that this blog post is headed for emo nemo land today. Read at your own discretion.

You know sometimes when you're trying too hard, people can tell that you are just whiny and too desperate in feeling that you wanna be accepted. You wanna be a part of everything. Then when you realise that you're turning into this psycho biatch, you go in the other direction and try to be cool about everything, but you're forgotten and you're neither here nor there with any clique because you realise that you don't truly belong anywhere. You just want to be alone, of course maybe snuggled up with a loved one because he assures you that he's more important than all of that and will stick with you through thick and thin.

But you will always need close girl friends around you to share your joy and pain, whatever you're going through in life. When you eventually reflect on your life journey, it'll be a blessing to have someone laugh at the goofy moments you've shared and have someone remember the tough decisions we had to call and what we stand for.

That's why I usually hang out one-on-one, I find that it's so much easier to confide in one without getting into any kind of conflict with a group of people. And I was never presented with an opportunity to become a member in a group of my own, whether it was in any stage of my life. Everyone seems to have come and gone, no one group for the long haul. No connection, everything was on a superficial level. I feel that I haven't made an impact on anyone's life, nor has anyone really made one on mine. (Actually I think Karma bit me in the ass for this. hahaha. But that's a story for another day.)

During the times when I needed attention, I was almost certain I could count on B to be there for me. I knew that we would definitely catch up to talk about stuff even if it had happened 3 months ago, or longer in fact. True story. We were similar but actually not so similar, but we could understand each other in a certain way.

Thank you, B for being such a good friend and by God's will, even though we're apart, leading separate lives over the past few years without much contact, you're still ultimately someone whom I can just pour out my heartfelt and authentic thoughts and feelings to. (The only person other than N, hee.)

I don't know whether you'll be reading this but babe, you are that blessing. :)

xoxo,

Jan

self-discovery.

For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'

- Jeremiah 29:11

A phrase that's dear to my heart, words of wisdom by a few loved ones who deeply care for me. Thanks for all the support fellas. :)

Attended the life purpose workshop that mum signed us up for on Saturday and explored around the area right after. Realised that the scarlet hotel was just round the corner and decided to chill there for a 2 hour catch-up session about our lives over the past 2 over months.

B's cheap Zara buys there are driving me insane, I'll defo be saving money and waiting for the right opportunity to make a trip there.

Scarlet Breeze at 4th floor.

I always cherish our time together and I'm really thankful to have a friend in B whom I can confide in about virtually anything and everything. The experiences we have had brought us that much closer to each other despite the many personality/character differences we have. :)

So glad tmr's gonna be a chillax Monday, followed by an awesome public holiday spent in the best possible way I've been able to.

Cheerios and enjoy this month - 2 more public holidays to come!